Mummy left me in the cold, she pushed me to the wall, she chose a man over, a man, not my father, not my uncle, not my brother, a total stranger (sobs).
Okay, let me let you in on how it all happened, my mother got raped at the age of 17, leaving her pregnant, her parents never believed her tale and since her father was a village chief and had a reputation to keep, he threw her out of the house and told her never to return, my mother’s mum also didn’t help in anyway.
My mum left the village very late that night and boarded a vehicle to the city, since life was hard she ventured into prostitution, that was how she managed to raise me till she found Jason and they got married, I was just 10 years old then, I never liked him although he tried all he could to make me like him but it never worked.
On my 12th birthday, mum was away and that was the worst birthday ever, Jason, (permit me to call him that), took me out on a treat since mum wasn’t around, he got me lot of stuff but I wasn’t so impressed but I had to pretend to, we got home quite late that night, Jason came into my room when I was fast asleep.
Before I could raise any alarm, Jason had already had his way with me, it was crazy, I felt what my mother felt when she was raped, why is this same thing happening to me?
Mum returned and I narrated everything to her but guess what? She didn’t believe a word that I said, well, I wasn’t surprised, she had always made it obvious that I was a mistake and that she hated me but it still hurt me.
Mum caught Jason red handed one night defiling me, I was atleast happy that she would finally believe me but guess what? It meant nothing to her, I was furious that night and the following conversation took place between mum and i
Mum: So after stealing my life, you want to steal my man too?
Mum: Shut up Josephine, you seduced him
Me: mummy please, listen to me for ones even if this would be the last time
Mum: okay, say the nonsense you wanna say Aje (witch) and make it fast
Me: mum, all my life I longed for just one thing, mummy we are flesh and blood, love me for this reason alone, that is all I ask that you do (I couldn’t continue, I started crying)
Mum: (bursts into laughter) love you? You don’t deserved to be loved because that bastard of your father is the reason why my life ended by getting me pregnant.
She said this, left me in the room and stormed out of the house, this was the worst thing I ever heard in my life and it was just too much, more than I could bare, I packed my things and left home with the aim of never returning.
10 years had passed and I found favour before men and God, the woman I ran to when I left home sponsored my education till I became a T.V presenter along side a model.
I know my mum sees me on T.V every now and then but since there is no love in her heart for me, she would never come close to me, she never even made an attempt anyways.
I love her sincerely but she lost me to her words, I’ll never be found by her, I forgive and I pray to forget someday!
That was fiction but I hope you learn s thing or two from this heartbreaking tale.
Sophybless, May 14, 2019